I’ve decided to start a routine of checking in with myself each month to look over what is and isn’t working for me.
The plan isn’t to necessarily set goals, because sometimes shit happens and things don’t go as planned. But I’ll have a ledger of the pros & cons so I can stop punishing or sabotaging myself and lead a happier life.
What is working for me
- Waking up early.
- Warm cups of tea.
- Staying away from social media.
- Slowing down.
- This website / keeping a journal. Being honest without apologizing for it.
- Audio books
What isn’t working for me
- Giving in to bad habits.
- Pilates / yoga every day of the week.
- Piano. I like the idea of being able to play, but I hate learning how.
- Being inside all day. At home or at work.
- Antidepressants. Maybe.
Well, of course, I’m going to keep doing the things that are working for me. So, the other list…
Giving in to bad habits: Nope, I’m done with that. The habits I keep breaking are the ones that send me into depression / anxiety cycles. And it’s almost always food related. Junk or sugary food. Eating it instead of a proper meal. Eating too much of it, etc.
I haven’t managed to get this under control through my entire life, but I’m going to keep trying.
Pilates / yoga every day of the week: When my anxiety is high it’s not an issue, but when I’m feeling calm I don’t want to feel obligated to go. So I’m going to switch it up and only go every 2nd day.
Piano: I understand but don’t get learning from sheet music. It just doesn’t stick. I’ve got an app which makes things easier but I’m avoiding it because I simply don’t want to dedicate the time to it. It’s time to sell the piano.
Being inside all day: This is a simple thing to fix. We’re coming out of Winter at the moment so I’m going to start now and try to sit outside for lunch at work, every day. I’m also going to message Cale and see if he wants to go walking after work / dinner.
Antidepressants: This one is a huge maybe. It’s definitely helped get my mental health under control, but I’m wondering if I need it anymore. Wondering whether my depression is a chemical imbalance or just a symptom of all of the crap in my life that I’ve mostly sorted out.
This one needs consultation with my GP. I can’t just give up cold turkey. That’s irresponsible.